I hate Utah. I hate everything about it. I want so desperately to be out of here, and that’s what I planned on doing.
“Emma, you’re 20 years old. You’ll have no job, and you barely have any money as it is. What makes you think you can survive anywhere but here?” my mom said to me. She’s so unsupportive, it makes me sick.
“Mom, please. Arizona is so much bigger than Utah. There’s plenty of job opportunities out there, just give it a chance,” I say back. The look she gives back to me ALMOST makes it seem like she believes a little.
I’ve always wanted to go to Arizona. The desert, the heat, the people, everything intrigued me. Ever since I was a little kid, I wanted only to take a trip to Arizona. Since then, all I want is to live there.
“Well honey, whatever you want to do, I can’t stop you. But I think you really need to think about this, Arizona is a long ways away,” she says.
“Yes mom, I know, you’ve told me thousands of times. I’m still going to go do it.” I practically already had everything packed without an actual game plan. I just wanted to get out.
“Deborah, let the poor girl do what she wants. Hell, she’s 20 years old! She doesn’t need to be ridiculed by her mother anymore, let her make her own decisions!” my grandfather yells to my mom through the archway of the living room.
“See mom, grandpa knows and accepts it, now why can’t you?” I murmur. I’m so sick of living here, being in a house where your own mother doesn’t believe in you.
I grab my keys and storm out of the house. I have a feeling that tonight is going to be my last night in this house, for good.
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I feel like I’ve been waiting years to kiss her. It was one of the best things that’s ever happened to me.
“You… you are so beautiful,” I tell her after we kiss. I’ve never thought of someone this way so quickly, the way I do about her.
“Oh hush, let’s go find the other lovebirds!” she rejects to me. Even though she rejects it, I see a hint of faded red blush her cheeks. It’s amazing.
We get back to the venue and look for Kylie’s mom, Amy. Once we find her, she’s very surprised to see me and Nicole walking hand-in-hand.
“This is probably a bit of a surprise, my name is Alex. I am this wonderful girl’s new boyfriend… it’s nice to meet you.” it feels good to say that.
“Well, that’s certainly a surprise, but it’s nice to meet you too. Where are Kylie and Brian? Have you talked to them at all?” she says back to us.
“We were actually just going to go find them now. I know where they were, so I know where to go find them,” Nicole says. Funny how she knows, but I don’t…
We go to the back of the venue where the back stage doors are. Once we’re back there, we catch them kissing, and all laugh at the same time, to be caught…
After a few awkward moments I ask, “so… what do we do know? I mean, quiet is really nice since my ears are still ringing. But… it’s kinda awkward.” I’m so calm now. Everything seems natural, even though we’re in a dark room, alone. That’s not quite natural or normal… but what fun is there in normal?
“Anything you want. This night is all for you. What do you want to do?” he says to me as I check my phone, I have a text from my mom.
“It’s 10:45; really gotta go now. I know you’re with Brian but it’s time to go. If you really need to, you can bring him back with us. If he’s willing.” does she mean that?
“Brian… this is all amazing… but I have to leave. I have school… and my mom has work early. Lame, I know, I came here with my mom…” that’s so embarrassing to admit. He doesn’t seem to think so, though.
“I don’t want this to be goodbye…” he murmurs. Pain flashes his eyes. Is he really serious right now? I can’t even imagine leaving him now…
“My mom said you could come back to my house for the night… you probably shouldn’t say no now.” I smirk, letting him know I wouldn’t let him say no anyways.
“Besides, I know you don’t have another show until next Wednesday.” not sure I should have admitted that I know all of this, but I am a fan, right?
She’s got to be kidding… right?! What mom would actually let her daughter bring a boy home at this age? She must know how Kylie feels… and that must be a lot to let that happen.
“You know what? That sounds like a great idea.” I take her hand and walk towards the door, ready for anything.
“Uhh… Brian…” she pulls back.
“What did I do?”
“Nothing… except completely forget your things on the couch.” she pulls her hand out of my grasp to grab the jacket. She slips it on her, along with my other jacket, and then grabs the guitar.
“It’s cold out, time to get used to this weather little ‘Zona boy!” she pushes the door open. It’s still hot in the venue, I’m dreading walking into the cold. It wouldn’t be hard to ask her for my jacket, I know she’d give it to me. But she looks so cute all bundled up; I don’t want to ruin that.
We step into the cold air, and I’m frozen.
“It’s fucking COLD in this state. Hasn’t anyone ever told your state to quit with this bullshit? For real… this sucks ass.” I’m complaining about the weather. But it’s fucking cold!
She stops and puts her hand on my chest. “I promise you, my house will be nice and warm.” she has a smile glued to her lips. It takes every ounce of my strength to not kiss her in front of all the security taking care of final closings on the building.
I grab both of her hands and put them around my neck. Fuck the guards, I take her face in my hands and kiss her lips softly. She smiles in the middle of the kiss, and I smile too. I suddenly hear a laugh, that definitely isn’t from the guards…
If I didn’t know any better, I would be looking at some random happy couple that’s been together for years. But since I do know better, I know that’s Kylie and a boy she just met tonight.
She puts her hand on his chest, and he turns to look at the guards. She says something but I can’t hear it. He takes both of her hands and puts them around his neck.
He stares at her for a moment, then takes her face in his hands and kisses her. All I can do is look at Nicole and Alex and we laugh, loud. They both stop as if they knew who it was that laughed.
He takes her hand and walks up to me. “Hello, ma‘am. My name is Brian, and I’m pretty sure I’m in love with your daughter.”
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh! Busted…
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I don’t know what I was thinking. My mind just thought too much, I suppose. How could I not trust him? Why did I have a reason to think all of these bad things about him?
I realize he’s been talking, “…you aren’t like them; you’re so much more.” he has no idea. “If it isn’t too late, I’d like to take you somewhere; somewhere that I think I’m the only one that knows about.” where could that possibly be? He hasn’t been in this state more than 20 times.
“If you say so… let’s go.” I take his hand; I’m ready for anything at this point.
We climb down the ladder, and sneak around the back of the building. We have to dodge a few fans along the way, and I feel horrible about it. Brian assures me that it’s okay, it isn’t my fault, but I still feel guilty.
We make it back into the building from the side, and the security freaks out. Brian explains who he is, and we make our way to the back room.
“I figured this out this morning, I’m sure the people that own this place know about it, but I don’t think no one else knows.” he flips the curtain back to reveal a door.
“It’s a door, why wouldn’t people know about it?” I ask. Is he joking? It’s not that hard to notice and open a door.
“The secret is, the door doesn’t open. It’s always locked. But I found these on the floor this morning.” he shows me a pair of keys. So he went snooping I see.
“What’s in there?” I shakily ask.
“Nothing much, but it’s so quiet and peaceful. Want to go in?”
I take the keys from his hand and open the door…
I hope she doesn’t think I’m a freak for taking her here. It’s just so quiet in there, I’d love to finally be alone with her where we don’t have to whisper.
She takes the keys from my hand and opens the door. It’s dark, but the stars shine through the little window to the left of us. There isn’t much inside the room; a couple fold out tables, some couches, a few amps.
She whispers, “it’s… perfect.” does she really mean it? I can barely see her face. We walk in and shut the door behind us. It’s warm in here, I take off my coat.
“Why did you want us to be in a closed off room again? Is this where you kill me?” she jokes.
I smirk, “if it were, would I tell you now?” she laughs. Her laugh; it’s better than any melody I’ve ever heard in my life.
She sit’s on the couch, “probably not. But if it’s what you’re planning, I’d like to be informed properly.” I sit down next to her, but what to do now? I just want to stare at her forever…
“…I want to do it with you,” he finishes in a soft whisper. He’s staring at me now, waiting for an answer.
“Well… how long do you have off? I have school…” I painstakingly say. Right now, I can’t even think of school. But the fact is still there; I have to go to school.
“I have a week… we have a week.” he says as he takes my hand.
“A week is plenty of time,” I say with a smile, “we can do plenty of things in a week!” I laugh after that. He looks so happy, it makes me smile even more.
“I should probably get you home then… as long as you promise me I will be able to see you tomorrow,” he smirks. I take out my phone to get his number. He types it in and gives it back to me, a smiley face next to his name.
“You know, I need a contact picture…” I say. He takes my phone, and pulls me into a hug while snapping a picture.
He hands the phone back, “there, perfect.”
“It is a nice picture, isn’t it?” I laugh back.
“Well the picture is nice… but I wasn’t talking about that…”
As he says the last few words, he pulls me in, and our lips finally meet.
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“…is it so bad that I just wanted you to myself tonight?” he whispers. The expression on his face says everything; I fucked up.
He isn’t just some band guy. I’m not his one night stand. This is real; it’s all real. I want to shout to him “no, it isn’t bad, because that’s what I wanted too,” but nothing comes out. I just stand there, motionless.
He’s so far away… come closer, my heart pleads. I still can’t speak. He takes a small, half-hearted step forward; questioning.
“Say something…” he says. What am I supposed to say? The only thing my mind is saying is, “I love you,” but there’s no way I’d ever say that.
I step closer, hoping he’ll forget everything, hoping he’ll close the gap, hoping the gap will be closed forever.
“SAY something…” he repeats again. I open my mouth to speak, then shut it again. “Don’t screw this up,” my mind is saying. My heart is screaming out of my chest,
“listen to him; everything’s fine.”
I step closer. “I’m… so sorry.” is all I manage to say. I turn around again, and instantly feel him at my side.
“You know… the night is beautiful from the angle I’m looking at right now… turn around, maybe you’ll finally see it too.”
Did she really just apologize to me? I’m the one that was screwing up all night; the one to make her feel all these things. I want to make it better… for her to forget about what just happened.
She steps closer… then turns around. My body instantly reacts; I step right up behind her.
I whisper from behind her shoulder; “you know… the night is beautiful from the angle I’m looking at right now… turn around, maybe you’ll finally see it too.” she pauses, and slowly turns to face me.
I know now that I need to say everything right. “Don’t screw this up,” my mind is saying. I take her hand.
“Please, don’t think of me as some band dude who gets all these girls just to get them. I’m not ashamed of you; I never would be. I’m not hiding you up here so no one will ever see; I’m hiding you up here so you can be with me, and not with everyone else. You aren’t like them; you’re so much more.” I need her to understand.
She is staring at me, wide-eyed. Has she never been told this by anyone before? Highly unlikely. She’s too… everything, to have never been treated this way.
“If it isn’t too late, I’d like to take you somewhere; somewhere that I think I’m the only one that knows about.”
…I can’t believe I just told her that. I have been trying the whole night to not seem like a freak; to just seem like I was kind of into her. Now she’s looking at me like I’m a MAJOR freak.
She whispers to me, “…really? Do you really mean that?” through her fingers on her mouth. How could I not mean it? Why would I lie?
“Yes… yes Nicole. I really like you. I know we just met tonight, but you’re amazing. You talk to me like I’m just a normal guy! I’m never really treated that way.” I’m rambling. I know I’m doing it but I just keep talking.
“I don’t know you very well, because I just met you tonight. But somehow, I feel like I’ve known you forever. When we met earlier, it just felt like we clicked. I don’t know if you felt it too…” I stop. Let her speak, my head says.
“I felt it too Alex… but when will I ever see you?” doubt fills her face. I don’t want her to feel discouraged.
“We have a few days off, maybe we should just… hang out. I don’t know what else to do, but I just know that whatever I do, I want to do it with you.”
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I should have known something would go wrong. He’s in a famous band, older than me, not in my future. I knew I was just another one. But why couldn’t I get up and walk away?
Don’t cry now, not in front of him. You’re not weak, you won’t let this person change that. My mind is racing, my stomach churning.
He didn’t want anyone to know, and why should he? I’m just another fan girl, another one night. Someone he wouldn’t remember by Monday. I turn away, a few tears escaping.
Don’t let him see, don’t let him see. The only thing going through my mind, how to get out of here. But my legs won’t move, my body is frozen in this position and I’m left here.
I should have said something, I should have been noticed. I hear him get up, come towards where I’m facing. Don’t let him see, don’t let him see..
“Kylie… look at me,” he says. I don’t want to turn around, I can’t let him see me upset like this…
“Kylie… look at me.” I plead. I don’t know what she’s thinking… and it’s killing me inside.
“What’s wrong? He’s gone now… it’s fine.” she turns. A little glimmer in her eyes tells me she isn’t far from tears.
“I… I think I need to leave now.” she chokes out.
“No, listen. Please don’t leave. I don’t understand… what happened?” I stare directly at her. I can’t let her leave.
“I don’t know… but I know it’s time to leave. Why… how come… why didn’t you want anyone to find us? It’s just Stephen…” she turns away, looks down below.
Everyone’s gone, it must be getting late. She shivers, and a tear falls down her cheek; and then it finally makes sense.
She thought I didn’t want anyone to see because I was ashamed; that she was just another one.
“Kylie… no. That isn’t even close to why I didn’t want anyone around. Have you ever met someone for the first time, and never got a chance to REALLY meet them?” she just stares at me. I’m not making sense… I know that.
“I don’t know how to explain it… is it so bad that I just wanted you to myself tonight?” her expression changes; surprise? I can’t believe I just said that to her.
She’s so far away…
“I dunno, I guess he might have just gotten lucky tonight,” I say to Marshall. I turn to Alex and smile, and we stare at each other for a little bit.
He gives me a look that I can’t really describe. I don’t know what to make of it; he looks almost sad.
“What’s wrong?” I ask him. I’m not sure if that was what his facial expression was trying to say, but he seems to agree with my accusation.
“Nothing, I just… don’t want you to leave,” he says back. That’s all I can think about; I have to leave him soon. Too soon.
“You guys are crazy, you just met!” Marshall says to us. He just doesn’t get it…
“Want to go outside and go for a walk?” Alex says to me. It’s like he can read my mind; all I want to do right now is be alone with him.
“Yeah, let’s get outta here. They’re too nuts!” I joke to the rest of the boys.
“See you… whenever…” Joey says. He’s such a freak, but I know what he means.
We walk outside and walk down some random street. I am now thinking of Kylie and Brain… who knows where they are now.
“So Nicole, I kinda want to tell you something, but I don’t want you to think I’m some freak…” he says. I don’t know what he wants to say, but I would never think that of him…
“I’m sure I won’t think that. What is it Alex?”
“I don’t really know how to explain it… but all I know is that I really, REALLY want to be with you.”
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I’m sitting here watch Brian and some girl, and Brian spilling out some crazy words. How did they get up here? More importantly, WHY are they up here?
He keeps talking and talking, without anything making sense. Who is this girl? Why are they up here alone, why was he singing?
I’ve heard that song before. He’s been singing it around town, without telling any of us who or what it was about. It must be about her, or something. I’ve never seen her before, so how could it be? He had to have just met her tonight.
All of a sudden, they’re kissing. For what seems like forever. All I can do is stand behind her and watch. I look up at the cold stars, to turn back to Brian staring at me. Busted. He’s pissed, maybe he shouldn’t have snuck up here with some random girl.
“What the fuck are you doing up here dude?” I whisper. We don’t need more fans noticing us. “Seriously dude, is it even legal to be up here?” he doesn’t seem enthused.
“I don’t know, does it matter? I kinda wanted to be alone. So I found this place. Now shut up… I don’t want anyone finding us. How did YOU find us?” did he really just ask that?
“Dude, you were singing REALLY loud. How could someone NOT hear you?” definitely got him with that one. This is really awkward…
I can’t believe any of this is happening… my head is spinning. Does he really mean what he’s saying? He can’t possibly remember any of that… it was so long ago. He went through so much more after that day, there’s no way he remembers some little 16 year old fan. But he sure says he remembers… we kiss again.
All of a sudden, Brian’s whole body stiffens. I hear from behind me, “what the fuck are you doing up here dude?” a long pause. “Seriously dude, is it even legal to be up here?” I know that voice, it’s Stephen.
“I don’t know, does it matter? I kinda wanted to be alone. So I found this place. Now shut up… I don’t want anyone finding us. How did YOU find us?” he isn’t happy… like he’s been caught. The feeling doesn’t sit right.
“Dude, you were singing REALLY loud. How could someone NOT hear you?” well fuck. That’s just awesome. I really feel like I should say something… but my mind says just shut up and let them argue.
Something in my gut says to let them know I’m still here listening to them argue, to fix the situation, to not feel so awkward. But I just keep quiet; Brian will take care if it… won’t he?
I wonder how many people can hear us now.
I messed up… we were caught. She is just looking at me… she’s upset. She looks like she wants to say something… but she won’t say it.
“Look Stephen, we’re kind of busy. I really just want to be alone… I don’t know when I’ll see her again.” I whisper the last words. I look at her, her expression emotionless. I didn’t want to say it…
Stephen’s quiet. He’s looking at her… waiting for her to say something. I wish she would speak, let me know what she’s thinking.
I look her in the eyes, they scream pain. I didn’t want to hurt her…
“Please Stephen… just go.” I whisper. It’s all ruined, the night over. As Stephen quietly steps down the ladder, she turns away, with the only thing that could make the night worse; tears.
I should have figured someone would hear me, but I wanted to show her the song so bad, I didn’t care. And now, I’ll I’ve done is hurt her…
Me and Nicole make our way back to the van, hand in hand. When we get inside, I instantly start blushing. The guys are all giving me the craziest looks, but what can I do?
“Hey guys, this is Nicole. I met her tonight, and… she’s awesome.” is all I really want to say in front of her. There’s so much more I could say, but I don’t want to freak her out.
“Hey Nicole,” Marshall says, “how’d this yahoo manage to snatch you up?” he jokes. Always messing with me, but she laughs.
“I dunno, guess he might have just gotten lucky tonight.” she says back. She looks at me and smiles; and I can’t look away. Our eyes are locked for what seems like forever.
I suddenly wish we were alone. I wish I could be somewhere with her where I would be able to hold her. I wish I could whisper sweet things to her and have her blush back at me and whisper something back.
I want to be with her.
Not some fake relationship that is full of regrets because of the suddenness of it all. I want to be able to kiss her goodnight and wake up next to her, every morning of every day.
If only she could see that…
Uh oh.. trouble up on the roof!!
But also, what’s up with Alex? Really likes Nicole…
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